Messing up

I did it.  I swore I wasn't that mom.But I did it anyway.  Oh yeah, Conan.  Yes I did.My youngest called me at snack time from school last week and said, "You're not going to like this mom.  I'm 404."And yes he was right.  I did not like that.  Usually I would say, "Ok.  Just correct it and we'll see where you fall at lunch."Not that day.  Not last week.Instead I said, "What happened?  What did you do?"I know what your face just did.  Reading what I said.  You're face did this...Told you I said it.He sat silent for a minute and then said, "I know!  I don't know what happened.""Did...

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Stuff I've seen on the Internet: Vol. 2

I've got to think of a better name for this.  I like to think I'm creative, but alas, It's the best my faculties can produce at the moment.I thought I'd wait another week before producing this post, but the last two days have produced articles aplenty! I've used some form of the word produce three times already.  I'm going to shut up now and start linking.Here's some stuff I saw on the internet this week:If you or someone you love uses test strips to check their blood sugar, you need to read this.  The Diabetic Online Community, (see also, mostly Bennet Dunlap,) has been lobbying the FDA to produce, (crap, that word again,) higher...

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I'll take it. All of it.

I cried myself to sleep last night.I haven’t done that in a long while.Literally falling away from the world with tears streaming down my face.  Angry that some would judge me because the moment scared me so.Angry that my children had a disease that would put their lives at risk just completely so out of the blue…Angry that I was angry.And yet amidst all of that anger, love.  A love so strong it flooded every inch of my body.  My chest lurching towards my son’s room, fighting off the urge to continue staring at him all night.The thought of losing a child can make even the calmest of mothers completely insane.  The what-ifs...

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Stuff I've Seen on the Internet

I'm committed to change how I do things.  I spend a fair amount of time online everyday soaking in information.  It's not right that I keep that information to myself.  Some of that info I feel is helpful, some of it I shake my head at.  Regardless, it is information nonetheless, and everyone should have the opportunity to have their eyes on it and glean from it what they will. In that vein, this week I saved some links that popped out at me, and I'd like to share them with you.  I am hopeful I'll be able to make this an ongoing thing...cross your fingers!Without further ado...Stuff I've seen on the Internet.* The new...

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Things are moving.

I had questions.  I walked into Medtronic Diabetes Headquarters in Southern California with three pages full of them, and I was sure many would be left unanswered.  I had flashbacks of the first Medtronic Forum.  I remember hearing excuses there.  I remember finger pointing at the FDA.  I remember hearing that the technology approved now was developed many years before.  I remember thinking the lag time was unconscionable.  Another 5 years here.  Another 5 years there.  We’re working on it…  We’re working on it…  Although I knew they had good intentions, there was a wall there.  Yes...

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Mission statement

Information is power.  Sometimes information comes through unlikely avenues.  In my case, the information I present to you is largely anecdotal.  My life story, and the lessons I learn from living such a life I hope to pass on to others, in large part to let you all know you aren’t alone.Taking that a step further, I believe that empowered parents lead to empowered children and that eventually, those children will grow into empowered adults.  At least I have faith that it can work like that.  My hope has always been to empower my reader with the simplicity of understanding.  Empower you to know that even though bad...

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Diabetes and Anger -- Is There a Deeper Connection?

Two years ago, I wrote a blog post about diabetes and anger. In that post, I explored a lot of the day to day reasons why a person with diabetes might feel anger, and frustration. In fact, there are many reasons why a person with diabetes would, indeed, become angry. Those reasons can be varied, including anger at oneself for 'failing' to prevent the disease, to anger at family for not understanding or patrolling/policing the person with diabetes' behavior, etc. These are common types of anger: the anger that results from struggling to cope with a new and changing environment, for which we might have little control. (You can check out that...

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