Are Diabetics Angry...?

(See Also: Diabetes and Anger -- Is there a Deeper Connection?) This angry diabetic has been really bewildered for the past few weeks with many new and personal challenges...  As we know, life's problems do not stop at diabetes, or any other chronic illness, nor do they care if we're having to juggle other things. In fact, in the storm of life... sometimes when it rains, it just pours. (I need to buy a raincoat.)So, I thought... why not take a little time to address a common, and often overlooked, issue with diabetes? Anger. In the past few weeks, my blog has registered many, many Google searches for "anger and diabetes," "do diabetics...

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Letting out the belt loop on my brain

Here's some shockaprising news: I was up worrying all last night.I did the 2:00am check and didn't go back to sleep.  ('Cause nighttime is the best time to worry...you totally know it.) You probably think I was up worrying about my sweet husband and all of the scans and appointments he has today.That would totally make sense.  But no.I was worrying about my 10 year old son and the epic field trip he is going on today.I'm sure when the fourth grade teachers got together they were over the moon that they were going to take these kids a few hours away to Old Sacramento and let them experience the rich history of California. ...

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Sharing A1C's? It's complicated.

I read a great post over at The 'Mine today about A1C's andthe efficacy of sharing them.  I began a comment on their blog and after the second paragraph realized I should probably take it over here. What is an A1C?  Ehow.com says this:  Hemoglobin A1C is the amount of the protein hemoglobin that has combined with glucose in a person's body. Diabetics test their hemoglobin A1C levels to monitor the average amount of glycosylated hemoglobin (glucose attached to hemoglobin) that has been in their blood over a two- to three-month period.Basically, the A1C is thought to give you an average blood sugar number from the past three months or so.  It is considered in wider circles to be, "The diabetic's report card."  Or in my case, "The mommy report card." The thing about an...

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Flip Flopping.

Something is wrong with me. Seriously.The last few weeks Ryan has insisted on doing EVERYTHING.  He wants to work.  He wants to see every customer.  He wants to go to every meeting.  He wants to make big future plans.  He wants to "normal."And for the most part I was ok with that.Except there was a lot of me saying, "Ryan, you need to rest."And, "Ryan, you just got out of the hospital 12 hours ago.  Why must you work?  Can't you call your customers?"And, "Ryan, you need to listen to your body.  You can't over do it!  Slow down!"And, "Ryan, please go nap.  You've been running around like crazy...

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All in.

The other day someone at church asked me how I was doing. (I get a lot of that lately...I'm sure you can imagine.) But as I opened up my mouth to answer his question, I was shocked to hear the following words fall out of my mouth..."I'm all in."He looked at me for a moment, brows furrowed, trying to figure out what I said. I returned the look, pausing to figure it all out myself..."With my faith that is. I'm all in. I've laid it all down at His feet...I trust that He'll take care of us."And I do.And I'm functioning.How am I not certifiably insane?My head is immersed in the fog of uncertainty. Sometimes, at the end of the day I look back...

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It's about now.

I've written about it before.  I was always the kind of person who couldn't wait until...you know...until.I was always looking FORWARD to something.  When we have another baby.  When we get a new house.  When summer comes.  When there is a cure for diabetes. When. That changed sometime in my early thirties.  I looked in the blue and amber eyes of my babies and realized that tomorrow doesn't matter as much as today does.  My dreams for tomorrow are gleaned from my actions right at THIS moment.  I realized I needed to take things one  day at a time.  Not one month, one year, or even one decade at...

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