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If you are new around here you might not know that I am not the biggest fan of Halloween….and not in the typical D Mom because-of-all-the candy kinda way. It runs deeper. It mostly has to do with the constant party’s…the nonstop action and the general overwhelmedness I feel in the month of October as a whole.This year I have tried to take a more holistic approach to it all. I have tried to make peace with the holiday, and thus far I’d have to say I’m doing a bang up job of it.Except last night I realized tomorrow was costume day at school, and not surprisingly, I was not ready for costumes. Hello, the Giants were kicking butt in the World Series, we had fun friends over, and then it was the season finale of Project Runway, (which I won’t ruin for anyone, but it was a TOTAL joke.)So costumes...
Friday, October 29, 2010
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Cleaning house.
I have a few things to clean up around here…and then I’ll be back to my normal, (whatever that is) blogging thing.First, I want to announce yesterdays winner. It was really close…the child that could fart on demand was a close second…but the winner is:DENISE from My Sweetest Boy!This is what her cutie 5 year old said about himself…"I keep doing things that hurt and that makes me stronger. I have big muscles. I can pick up Grace (classmate), Mercy (her sister), Drew (his lil brother) and the pumpkins....and Drew's gator. That's all. and I'm a Dare-Devil! Hehe"It was the word Dare-Devil and the giggle at the end that put him on top. Denise, your...
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
How is your KidStrong?
Last month I was sent a box of KidStrong Hydration Beverages to try out with the boys. I was really excited to try them as they were only about 10 carbs each and full of all sorts of good stuff.Here is a quote from the information packet I received:“KIDStrong is scientifically-formulated with all the vitamins and nutrients that kids require to live a healthy, active, and productive lifestyle. Unlike other “sports drinks” on the market, KIDStrong contains no artificial flavors, sweeteners, or preservatives. It also contains no stimulants and is low in sugar.” Hello! How can I as a mother not want to try this stuff?After a hot day at school the...
Monday, October 25, 2010
An open letter to Target.
Dear Target,I am one of the many faces you will frequently find walking around your stores. I probably don’t stick out. I am pretty boringly normal when it comes to my looks. I am 5’4” tall. I am blond. I am tired. I am a mom to four boys. I am also one of your most loyal customers. I drive fully 20 miles to go to your store at least once a week and I fought the city council in our “no big box store” town to get you here. They say you are coming…I’ll believe it when I see it.Anyway…back to my original intent. I’m writing you for a reason, and I’m just going to come right out with it...Why the hell can’t I get cell phone service in your store? What is up with that??? I may LOOK like every other customer, but underneath all this normalness is the swelly brain of a mother who has...
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Strengthening our armor.
Another child has passed away from Dead in Bed Syndrome. I cannot tell you how much I hate typing those words. I almost want to say I refuse to ever type those words again. I won’t let those words take away my sanity.I’m so angry right now, I want to revolt! I will not let diabetes capture the only bit of sanity I have left. It can’t have it! I will fight it! I will not let the fear fester in me. I will push it down…way way down to my feet. I will walk heavier today…but I will walk with my chin held high.No diabetes…you can’t make me worry more.No diabetes…you can’t make me cry anymore today. I am stopping NOW. Instead I will look at my children and thank the Lord that they are laughing, crying, fighting and whining! I will count my blessings today. I will kneel and pray for comfort...
Monday, October 18, 2010
I want you to know something.
There are a few things I want you to know.I want you to know, when your daughters pump ran out of insulin within the first hour of school last week…I have felt that very same anger and embarrassment that you did.I want you to know, when your baby wets his bed at night from a high blood sugar…I have felt the same sadness, guilt, and love for my son that you do.I want you to know, when you forget to bolus your child for dinner, and their bedtime number is 508. I have felt the very same shame and intense regret.I want you to know, when you take out your daughters set and there is a bleeder, I have felt the same horror and sheer panic that you are experiencing at that same moment.I want you to know, when your son goes to a friends for a sleep over…I know you have to actively push the worry and...
Friday, October 15, 2010
Groundhog Day…in October.
So it started out pretty innocently. B was 327 before bed. Considering B has been on the low side of normal at bedtime for the last three months, I took it as a fluke and corrected him. He had just had a bath disconnected from his pump. Crazier things have happened. (PS This was the same night my husband was out of town, and I had to change L’s set myself…leading to the previous post, So can I.)So anyway. High number. Correct. Done and Done.Well two hours later…327. Again. HMMMMM…weird. I’m tired. Correct. Done and done??Two hours later…317. He moved. I’m obviously stupid or something because I correct and go back to sleep.Two hours later…321. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Ok! I get the hint. It is four in the morning and something isn’t right. So since I was delirious with exhaustion…and...
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
So can I.
I remember the very first shot I had to give.I hated it. It was the hardest thing I ever had to do. My husband was so cool about it all. If he was scared, he didn’t show it. He grabbed that needle and bam, done. I on the other hand, had to give my first shot into an orange, then a couple more practice ones into my husband’s arms. The emotions ran through me like a wild fire. I couldn’t douse the fear. I couldn’t stop the anger, the sadness, the confusion…I was sure I would poke him too hard. I was sure I would do it wrong. I dreaded that bubble of insulin that would sometimes rise out of the needle hole in J's flesh. He got such a small amount of insulin…who knows how much of his dose that bubble held? How could I do this? How could I hurt my baby multiple times a day? At the...
Friday, October 8, 2010
Brain Rebellion.
Ummmm…I’ve got a bit of a problem.I think my brain is turning on me.I mean the swelly-ness of it is one thing…but now it is playing tricks on me…and this mama ain’t laughin’.This past couple weeks I have found myself doing things I would NEVER do. N-E-V-E-R!Specifically, I have been messing with my alarm, and waking up with no memory of said messing.Confused?Long story short: It all begins with the fact that I have become a snoozer. A snooze-a-holic if you will. When my 1:30am alarm goes off…I snooze. It is a given.It wasn’t always that way. In our old house the alarm clock was kept across the room, NOT on my side table. We did this purposely...
Thursday, October 7, 2010
A Very Meri World.
Happy No D Day!Ok, I’m not a proponent of Dictatorships or anything…but I often have fantasies of ruling the world. Let’s face it, if I ruled the world …good things would happen. I understand I don’t have magic powers or anything, so the changes I would make would be TOTALLY practical…take a looksie…* Certain Medical supplies that may or may not have to do with the D word would cost 1 penny each. (OK, I’m already starting with my mind on the D word…so I’ll leave the things I would change in regards to that for another day.)* If you don't stop completely at a four way stop…or if you don’t wait your turn…I would install spikes that would come...
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Three fer one.
You get three posts in one today! Are not you the luckiest blog readers ever?Okay, maybe luckiest is stretching it…but you are for sure the greatest blog readers ever!(Have I buttered you up enough to read to the end?)BLOG POST #1.To start off, Cindy at Eaten Alive started a mail exchange with the T1 Kiddos in the community. Can I just tell you what a brilliant idea this is? My boys LOVE mail. I think every kid LOVES mail. And to get a small gift in the mail too? Well, there was almost some pants wetting around here…it was THAT exciting.B was matched up with L. L is Shannon’s Daughter from the blog Neurotic City. Before I show pics, I’m going...
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Tag! My boys are it!
Heidi and Jack from D-Tales started this great MeMe for our awesome kids. They tagged Tracy and the Superhero from the Superhero and the Princesss. Tracy passed it on to Reyna and Joe from Beta Buddies, who then gave it to Kris and Bumble Bee at Our Sugar Bugs. Kris tagged me and my boys.So here were go!What is your name?B: “B”J: “J”L: “L”How old are you?B: “Ummm…eight.”J: “Twelve, soon to be thirteen.”L: “Six.”When were you diagnosed with diabetes?B: “I think I was five years old.”J “When we learned I had diabetes I was 8 months old.”L “Uh I think I was four? Was I four? I was two!? I thought I was four!”Do you remember what happened...
Monday, October 4, 2010
Drama for the Mama?
It is a pattern with me. You would think I would catch on. I begin the school year in defensive mode.Teachers don’t get it. I get offended.And the conversations we have only end in me wanting to fall into a fetal position and cry.Last week when I was picking up the boys from school early for their endo appointment, I got a call from L’s teacher telling me he was low. I was in the office and told her I would be right there.When I got to the class the kids were running off to lunch and she began what I perceived to be a big tirade about the big swing in blood sugar he had that day.At snack he was 329. VERY unusual. He had the same breakfast he has EVERY Wednesday. My sister in law picks the boys up at 7:00 on Wednesdays and my mother in law makes them the same scrambled eggs, with the...
